Monday, September 04, 2006

what's normal now...


What's normal now:
seeing my mom crying whenever she is left alone at home
going to the cemetery during sundays after my duty
sleeping in my bed with an empty space beside me
crying whenever i look at my sister's dress in her closet
having to put a brave front when i'm with my mother
learning to smile and put a happy facade fakely
a heart full of hate...hating life itself

When will this agony end???....when can i see the light? the promise of a new dawn? will i ever see it again?